Tony Robbins Unleashed My Power Within
Furiously scribbling, mind racing, adrenaline pumping — I couldn’t seem to write fast enough. Just like my college and law school days, when I never wanted to miss a word the professor said, I needed to immortalize the powerful words flowing from the great mind before me. As soon as Tony Robbins said, “Good morning, San Jose,” I felt like I was right back in school, but this time, the lessons would be an immersion into this thing called life — my life.
Many have heard of Tony Robbins; if you have not, Google him. At 6’8” he is huge, both in physical form and in life, and so much of his power is derived from his perception and understanding of what it means to be human.
The timing of this adventure could not have been better for me. Prior to going, I had been dabbling in the lower vibrational world-- fearful, worried, overwhelmed and even at times feeling a bit paralyzed. My mom had just been diagnosed with cancer. I was weeks away from officially launching my website, NutmegAspirin.com, which was both exciting and anxiety-inducing. With my life so rocky, I was not sure how I was going to manage.
While I present myself to many as very strong and confident, the few who really know me could see that I was awash in fear. Those few are the ones who know that I have always persevered despite the fear. I launched my blog and threw up just after hitting send to my mailing list. Before I speak in front of a crowd, I get so anxious that I can hardly breathe, but what lurks behind that facade is invisible to most.
I spontaneously decided to make the trek to California to experience the life-changing magic that I’d heard Tony Robbins possesses. While I knew of Tony’s work and had watched his TEDTalk, I went knowing very little (which is great because it helped me keep an open mind!). Up until this point, my route to self-evolution had been through working with healers and spiritual guides, traveling the world to connect with indigenous beliefs with guidance from mystics and shamans, but I had never worked with a motivational speaker or life coach. My stance had always been: why work with mere mortals when I can work with people who have abilities to transcend the “earth plane dimension?”
But alas, Tony Robbins is no mere mortal. Within seconds of walking into the packed arena of 12,000, he had me at, “Hello.”
His tempo, everything he says and does, and everything he guides you to do– from passively sitting and absorbing the learning, to standing and rocking out, literally screaming till the building shakes, to singing along to the best music perfectly matched to the energy– it is all methodically planned to train, to condition, and to assist you to break through. The scientific word to best explain what he does is Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP), which is the retraining of neuro associations.
Two days before the seminar, Tony asked his San Jose crowd via Instagram, ”What is your intent for participating?” My response: To conquer my fears. Specifically, I feared that I was a fraud – the epitome of Imposter Syndrome. There I was wanting to create this authentic, vulnerable community dedicated to personal experiences around healing, and yet, I, the person setting the energy for it, was being anything but authentic. I set my entire heart on letting go of worry and fear for good.
And I did it on my first day. How?
Even before the day began, I was scared. I knew that the day would culminate with the walk on the hot coals— Tony’s signature rite of passage. Although I tried to forget about it, fear of failing consumed my mind.
What haunted me was this whole idea of “peak state.” That is what Tony calls the beautiful state of being, where you feel alive and empowered. He teaches that it can be accessed in literally a snap, and anyone can go from a low-vibe feeling to that extraordinary I-am-on-top-of-the-world! feeling by changing three things: physiology, focus, and language. Could I, the usual ball of nervous energy, abandon my go-to coping techniques and maintain peak state long enough to make it to the other side of the coals?
Throughout the day, my mood continually elevated. I was having so much fun that even as one who normally does not like to hug strangers, was hugging everyone in my path as Tony encouraged us to hug and high five. It was like I had 12,000 new best friends– an extraordinary community of people who saw me with no judgments. We were bonded in our common pursuit to make ourselves better people, to break through and be free.
But the coals lingered in my mind. I feared that I would be the 1 in 12,000 who would bail.
After 12 hours of Tony’s teachings, he shifted to preparing us for the walk of fire. While squeezing our right fists, we contemplated a range of emotions — memories of love, laughter, fear. We then used visualization to conjure the celebration and amazing feeling of conquering our fears after making it across. 45 minutes later (which felt like just a few minutes), he told us to open our eyes. We were ready. He taught us to keep our heads high, not to look down, and to mantra, “cool moss,” as we walked.
Performance anxiety flooded back in. Could I achieve peak state on command? I told my new best friends (the complete strangers who I had been sitting with all day) that I was insanely scared and, as such, would go last. Even as we marched confidently and chanted affirmations on our way to the fire lanes, I still contemplated bailing. But everything shifted when I was close enough to see others going across without a problem. Right after they added new hot coals, I looked at my new friends and said, “Get out of my way, I am going first!” I strode across, kept my head high, heart forward, and let my mantras guide me. I did it! I made it to the other side, into the arms of strangers, hugging and kissing me– so happy for me and my accomplishment.
Just like I had visualized, I felt extraordinary-- a new kind of natural high that felt almost miraculous. I did something that I did not believe I could do: I faced fear on an epic level and surpassed it. And in my soul, I became unstoppable..
For me, it was the coals that helped me overcome my fears. For you it may be something else. But, find something that you're afraid of-- something that you know will actually be good for you, because when you conquer it, you too, will become unstoppable.